My human changelog

I've decided to track my life like a series of software updates. It's my human changelog.


Published on 2020-07-13

My key take away for this month was: don't shy away from what you love to do.

Over June, I got started at my new role as Founding Engineer @ Fluent, and I couldn't be happier. It feels amazing to work with talented, optimistic people who're trying to change the world of learning. It hits very close to home as someone who mostly avoided traditional educational routes as a kid. The fact that I get to continue honing the craft of software development, which I love, and build something meaningful is an uplifting feeling. I'm excited to wake up and get out of bed again.

I've also gotten back into photography. I had a lull at the end of last year where life felt like it got in the way, but being able to find more balance recently, I can dedicate more time to photography as a hobby. So much so, I've decided I want to put together a cohesive body of work for the first time as a photographer. Outside of a photo 365 I did close to 10 years ago, I've never put spent the time to create a series that has a story.

I don't know how long it'll take to complete, but I don't want to focus on the end. I want this to be a jounrey, and for it to take me down paths I haven't yet explored. And to do that, I want to explore the religious symbols in/around Quebec. We used to be a culture, like many other places in North America, that was dominated by Christian/Catholic ideologies. And now, it's mostly faded to the background. The idea of going to church, your first communion, etc. have dramatically fallen in terms of adoption, especially within Montreal. Yet, we're still left with these massive spaces that occupy few in a given moment.

Outside of making photos of these buildings or symbols, I want to dig into the story of religion in Quebec. How it shaped our culture, and why it no longer seems to matter as much. I also want to document the entire process of building this body of work, as I think it'll be a great way to augment the narrative of whatever I publish.


  1. Layers of confidence being rebuilt
  2. A stronger comfort with the unknown and uncomfortable


  1. Fear of judgment as a deterrent for experimentation
  2. Looking for more instead of looking at now

Bug Fixes

  1. Lack of fulfillment in my daily work
  2. Letting finanical outcomes dictate creative exploration


Published on 2020-06-06

My key take away for this month was: find work that lets you create.

The reflective nature of April led to me leaving Cafune in May. I realized that I was burnt out on coffee as a whole, and it wasn't just the business I had tried to build. I needed to step back. On top of that, the work that I would be doing at Cafune—short and long term—wouldn't fulfill the creation-oriented nature I have. Thankfully, my partner and friend understood where I was coming from, and we parted ways amicably. Starting this week, I'll be going back into a programming role, which I couldn't be more excited about.

Writing out what I felt I needed to have a "successful" and fulfilled life led me to this decision, and I honestly couldn't be happier.

For this next month, I want my focus to be on fostering long-lasting relationships and to try to find joy and laughter in as much of my life as possible.


  1. Have a clear-cut picture of my new criteria for a fulfilled life
  2. More easily letting go of things out of my control


  1. Letting finanical outcomes dictate creative exploration
  2. Fear of judgment as a deterrent for experimentation
  3. Looking for more instead of looking at now

Bug Fixes

  1. Grasping for control
  2. Tying self-worth to work


Published on 2020-05-03

My key take away for this month was: fulfillment comes from creation.

I've been doing a lot of reflection on what it takes for me to feel fulfilled. The thing I keep coming back to is that I need to live life, and create, on my own schedule. I'm a maker at heart, always have been. Doing things at the whim of someone else's schedule shackles me mentally, and often has me looking for an escape route. It's not a unique problem, but it feels great to recognize in myself.

This next month, my goal is to establish my new criteria for a "successful" life, and start building momentum towards it.


  1. Built a consistent morning ritual (meditate, vitamins, workout)
  2. Discovered joy in cooking as a hobby to compliment baking on weekends
  3. Relinquishing old desires/goals to build new ones


  1. Letting finanical outcomes dictate creative exploration
  2. Fear of judgment as a deterrent for experimentation
  3. Looking for more instead of looking at now
  4. Grasping for control
  5. Tying self-worth to work

Bug Fixes

  1. Living in the future, not the present


Published on 2020-04-04

My key take away for this month was: there is safety in surrender.

I joined as a partner in March. Getting up to speed has been an interesting shift in mindset/habits. Having worked in pure tech for most of my career, moving to e-commerce has been a huge shift. Lots of new stuff to learn, lots of new stuff to try & optimize. Thinking in margins/revenue tied to physical goods & processes is very, very different from software.

I've noticed it's easy for me to get caught up trying to fix, scale, and change things before I've lived with them long enough to fully understand them. So, I'm doing my best to take things slow, be a sponge, and wait to shift mindsets to growth until after the initial slow period of understanding. It's wild to think how far I've come mentally since January, where everything seemed so bleak and impossible. It feels great to have my mindset shift towards optimism again. I feel myself coming back to an equilibrium.


  1. Building in practices to let go and surrender to life
  2. Baking as a regenerative hobby
  3. Leaving work at work


  1. Looking for more instead of looking at now
  2. Living in the future, not the present
  3. Tying self-worth to work
  4. Grasping for control

Bug Fixes

  1. Letting work be the only thing on my mind
  2. Finding regenerative hobbies outside of work skill set


Published on 2020-02-25

My key take away for this month was: recovering from burnout is a lengthy process.

I spent most of the month dealing with my anxiety and depression. It led me to really self-reflect and analyze what I want to spend my life focusing on. Thankfully, I had just enough savings left to give myself space before diving back into work. Through this process I've laid out an ideal balance I'd like to find, and I think an opportunity with that right balance is available to me starting in March.


  1. Deeper understanding of what I need to feel fulfilled
  2. Better able to identify & quell anxiety before it's a problem


  1. Tying self-worth to work
  2. Grasping for control

Bug Fixes

  1. General directionlessness
  2. Worst panic attacks of my life


Published on 2020-01-31

The main take away from this month was to be kind to yourself.

After 3 1/2 years working on Firstbloom, I finally called it quits. It wasn't an easy decision but I was running myself into the ground. Had I pushed forward and continued, I think I would've ended up hospitalized. This situation has forced me to take a good look at what I need in a personal & professional context to thrive.


  1. Started therapy
  2. Learned my limits/boundaries


  1. Worst panic attacks of my life
  2. Anxiety / depression
  3. General directionlessness

Bug Fixes

  1. Removal of problematic situations / entity